Should I Adopt A Child?

Today my real dream was put to the test. I have always dreaming of having a child of my own and today a friend of my staff's niece was looking for a home for her 8 months son. She doesn't have a proper home nor could afford another mouth to feed in her difficult life (I supposed) and she wants her son to have a good life. So my staff suggested to me that I should take this child for an adoption.

For all I care, I will never have my own flesh and blood child. It's just not me and I have no intention of getting married either. Whether or not I am straight or gay or whatever is not the issue here. I just have no interest to get married to no one. And maybe my sisters or people close to me wouldn't see me as a fit parent for an orphan child but that is not their decision. They have no right to take away my rights and my luck and give that child to my younger sister just because she is married now and has no child yet.

I can see what they think of me. They just see that a child should grow up with a mother and a father. But with me, there's only me and my cats and occassional friends around me. To raise such an abandoned child should come with a lot of love, a proper home to live, stabilize income to support the living and a whole lot of knowledge to educate the child. If they think that I am not religious enough to raise a child, I have seen a lot less with families that have more than three children and their children can't even recite a Muqaddam. Let alone a Quran!

And I don't see why I need a wife first in order to adopt a child. I saw a lot of broken homes and single parents everywhere. Their marriage just come crumbling down like cookies smash to a wall and yet they survive the living and made it as a successful individuals.

I fit all these good criteria but I feel afraid to take such an important challenge in my life. Should I take such opportunity when it comes knocking on my door again next time? I keep asking myself the same questions over and over many times. And this opportunity was not the first time being offered to me. This is the second time actually.

However, today's deal was already over because some close relative to the mother of the child had adopted him 2 days ago and we just found out about it just now.

On the other side of me I felt relieved because I am not forced to accept such a challenged and if I did turned it down, I would have been so guilty and sad. The truth is I know I could take care a child on my own, by myself but this is all new to me and I feel so afraid to deal with what might come in the future.

I realized that adopting a child is nothing like adopting an expensive cat. But I am sure someday I will be ready for such a difficult task. I am sure if there's a "Rezeki dari Allah" in the future, I am sure Allah will show me the right step of what should I do or take. Maybe now is not the time yet. I am sure Allah has other plans for me.

Insyaallah!

Amin!!!!!!

Wedding Adik Ku

Alhamdulillah Fizah dah selamat di nikahkan pada Jumaat malam yang lepas dengan Sapie Bin Misdon. Kami sekeluarga berasa sangat gembira sekali terutama sekali mak.

Seperti biasa banyak jugak mulut-mulut mak sedara, nenek sedara, saudara-mara yang melemparkan soalan Cepumas kat aku. . . . . .

Soalan : Bilo laie nak kawin ni wan? Copek lah sikit.
Alasan Sedara kenapa kena kawin cepat: Nenek ni dah tuo haa.... Dapeklah nenek tengok ko kawin nanti.

Jawapan aku: Insyaallah Besok den kawin.

Reaksi Sedara dengan jawapan aku : Huh????!!!!

Hahhahahahah!

Tak kuasa nak layan soalan yg semua orang lemparkan. Aku lebih senang hidup sendiri, cara aku sendiri, tak payah nak fening2 kepala. Perlu ke nak kawin apa gajah nyer? Sapa yg nak kawin nie? I ke atau nenek2 sedara ni semua?

Siapa Lebih Kuno, PDRM atau POS Malaysia????

So, ok, sekarang ni musim orang berpusu-pusu membayar Saman sebab PDRM bermurah hati (Bermurah hati ker?) nak bagi discount on all the stupid traffic summons that they throw at us drivers for their bonus free money. OK i get it you want us to pay. But at least have the fucking decency to provide us with an efficient systems to pay the summons.

Semalam aku pergi ke Pejabat POS Sungai Besi. Aku sampai sana dalam pukul 12 lebih. Aku ambil no giliran dan kena tunggu sampai dekat seratus orang baru giliran aku sampai. OK lah dah alang-alang Rezal nak pos surat berdaftar ni, aku pun tumpang sekaki nak bayar Saman Trafik sekali. Jadi kami pergi Makan tengahari dan beli barang kat pekan Sungai Besi dahulu. Lepas tu dalam pukul 2.00pm kami melangok semula kat Pejabat Pos tunggu giliran.

Pukul 3.30pm, no giliran kami dipanggil. And guess what? Kakak kat kaunter tu cakap. . . ."Sori encik, kami tak boleh access Sistem PDRM. Kalau encik nak tunggu lagi, saya boleh terus cuba". So, aku pun tunggu lagi 30 minit, Kakak tu cakap tak boleh jugak. So aku pun surrender dan balik ke opis semula. Aku pun kena kerja jugak. Mak Bapak aku bukan ketua Poles Negara yang boleh tangguh bayar Saman nie lagi.

So today at 10.45pm aku sampai kat Balai Polis Jalan Bandar dekat China Town nak bayar Saman Trafik nie. And guess what? Aku kena tunggu 710 orang punya giliran baru aku boleh jejakkan kaki kat depan kaunter pembayaran dorang. WTF!!!!

Tolong ambil ikhtibar dari cara Tol Plus kita. Dorang akan buka kaunter extra semasa orang sibuk balik cuti raya atau cuti perayaan yg besar2. Baru lah efficient dan "Malaysia Boleh". Ini, dah lar semua orang meraba macam orang buta kat Balai Polis tu tak tau nak buat apa? Nak kena semak Saman dulu ker atau terus ambil no dan bayar saman kat kaunter sekali gus ker? SO!? Ramailah orang yang walking around asking everybody else. Kot yea pun, letak lar satu officer kat situ jadikan kaunter pertanyaan. Atau pun letak poster keterangan mcm mana precedure nak bayar saman kat Balai Polis. Baru lah memudahkan rakyat.

Yang hairan nyer, kenapa Balai Polis yang lain seperti Kat Sungai Besi dan banyak lagi yang lain tu tak boleh menerima bayaran Saman Trafik, kenapa? Dah lar POS Malaysia dungu nak mampus, nak check saman pun tak boleh. WTF! Balai Polis yang lain nie tak boleh online ker? Sistem tahun 80an ker dorang guna? Tak der internet? Katanya kerajaan buat Multi-Media Super Corridor kat Cyber Jaya tu berkurun lama dulu sampai sekarang balai polis kita semua masih guna type writer ker? Get what I mean?

And we pay TAX for fucking what? By right all the Balai Polis di seluruh negara must be able to check and accept payments for Traffic Summons. If POS Malaysia is willing to provide the service, PDRM should more fucking efficient than all of them stupid Pejabat Pos.

Duit kami you all nak tapi service tak ada. Padahal nak set up sistem bukan lah susah sangat. Takkan I yang dok kat Bandar Tasik Selatan ni kena pergi all the way to KL just to pay for my Tickets padahal Balai Polis ada aje kat Sungai Besi tu?

Dah lar kes Pecah Rumah, Kes Pecah Ofis, Kes Kecurian, hampa semua tak boleh tangkap penjenayah pun. CCTV dah ada pun korang tak boleh buat apa-apa pun? Habis tu benda yang korang boleh buat ialah bagi saman kat orang bila salah parking dan bawak lebih had laju. Itu ajer! Tapi bila time nak bayar susah giler. Menyusahkan hidup Rakyat ajer.

Bukan tak mahu bayar, leceh giler nak bayar. Nak check my Traffic Summons kat MYEG punya website semalam pun tak boleh. WTF!!!! So apa yang boleh??? So jangan guna slogan kerajaan "MALAYSIA BOLEH" this and that because the truth is "MALAYSIA TAK BOLEH".

Pada pendapat I, PDRM ker, POS Malaysia ker, dua-dua sama ajer. Mengabih kan Boreh yo!